Latest Tweets:
A Time When Things Weren’t So Good
Things in my life weren’t to good for a while last year. A lot of bad things happened. For instance, I had a hard break up caused by me, I regretted the choice of doing it for a long time, I got my self into trouble, my mother left our family, I became the house mother, I got in a huge fight with a best friend, I got involved with a psycho ex, I got into my first car accident, and many other bad simple things. Even though great things did happen it was just kind of a crappy year where things weren’t good. Luckly, I did have my best friend and boyfriend to help me through it.
A Song That Describes My Mood Today
Hmmm, saying as that today was a pretty crappy day a song that describes my mood today would probably have to be, bad day.
A Time In My Life When Everything Seemed To Be Going Great
My 7th grade year would have to be when everything seemed to be going great. Like everything, I got my first kiss, I had great best friends whom I basically lived with, my mother and I got along a tad bit better than normal, and I didn’t seem to have too much drama going on. Things are great now and there have been other times since that they were great but not everything was, either a boy broke my heart, I was fighting with a friend, or all I wanted t do was move away from my house. In 7th grade I wanted to stay in my city with all my friends and never thought about leaving them.
What It Means To Be In Love
Being in love means many things in many different ways. You could be in love with a pair of shoes and that means you want to buy them and wear them often. You could be in love with your dog, so you’d ultimatly care for them and treat them as a child. But to be in love with another person means many things. It means you could enjoy time by watching the other play video games for hours while you read. It means when your complete opposites you learn to get involved in the opposite of yourself. It means not arguing over niave things that can be discussed. It means talking about everything and anything on your mind. It means understanding the shyness or obnoxiousness of the other. It means spending time watching random series or seasons of shows or movies just for the fun of it. It means loving all the imperfections about them and all the right things too. Being in love with someone else means you would be willing to give your world to them.
"Feeling broken, barely holding on, but there’s just something so strong, somewhere inside me. I am down but I’ll get up again, don’t count me out just yet."
Cher - Burlesque
ifiendtofeed-deactivated2011042 asked: I have to know, back on July 12 I believe you posted something called "Like" Was any of that about me? Thats a few days after you left me. so I was curious.
Kay I added you, and honestly reading over I think some part was but really I don’t know for sure.
24 Hours Left
If I only had 24 hours left to live I would spend it doing many things. I would not sleep and start doing things at 12:01am with the ones I love most like my best friends, boyfriend, and family. I would first go snowboarding where ever I could in a bikini, then I would find a safe bridge and do some bridge jumping. After that I would go to Cracker Barrel for a hugeeeeee breakfast of chicken and dumplings and a ham & cheese omlette. Once I was full and couldn’t eat anymore I would want to spend some alone time relaxing with my man. When I had engergy back I would want to dress up ridiculous and go around doing random things like painting faces over billboards and writing my name over a whole parking lot. After this it would probably be time for an epic lunch where I’d eat at an extravagent restaurant with exotic food that I probably would not like but it’d be cool to say I ate it anyways. Again once full I would have some fun by getting on a plane to go to australia for ten minutes and flying back just so I could go up to someone and talk about dingos and boomerangs :D. Once arriving in the U.S.at California I would get some dinner at taco bell just because and get delicious ice cream at cold stone. I would then go surfing and eat some waves. After that I would end my last minutes stealing a car and driving down the highway as fast as I could. <3
Where I Spend My Time
Five to ten years ago I would have never thought I would spend majority of my time working at a hospital and with Daniel Joseph Chadwell. Dan and I are complete opposites so i would have never guessed five years back he is the guy i would be with. But now, I am glad he is and ecstatic he is who I spend majority of my time with. We always have great times even if it is doing absolutely nothing or loads of errands. Five or ten years ago I would have thought I would be spending my time with my best friend Amanda from middle school talking about life and boys. But as I grew up I changed and I found Daniel. <3
Best Friends Over The Years
All the best friends I have had over the year have changed me a little bit. In middle school I had one best friend who transformed me from the shy geeky nerd to the outspoken rambunctious girl. Me and this best friend were basically like sisters we pretty much did everything together I even had my own room at her house.
The next best friends after she passed from drama, were a group. They were great friends and we had really great times like pudding fights, chocolate pudding by the Christmas tree, and sneaking out to party. Although, when partying got involved drama got involved too. This is when I realized partying and chaos weren’t what I wanted all the time, so even though they were great friends I began to confide in someone else.
She has been a childhood friend for a long time but we often ended up drifting apart. When we finally stuck after catching up on bus rides home we started spending most of our time together. She is my best friend because we don’t judge and we don’t often fight, when we do it’s usually a huge blow up but it doesn’t happen like ever.
Another best friend I have was made through a friend because it is his girlfriend. When I met her I didn’t really know we would become friends all I knew was she kicked ass at laser tag. But now even though we rarely hang out she’s a great friend when we do talk it’s for at least an hour and her love for yellow things and her humor are the best.
My all time best friend would have to be the love of my life and my boyfriend, we don’t fight because we can always come to an agreement when we don’t have the same opinion. Even though we are complete opposites and have been through very rough terrain when we first began he is the best friend I have ever had.
Who I Am Today
I would like to think compared back to middle school I am more mature, smart, and common sensed. I have learned to have a sense of responsibility for myself, my family, and my friends. When I was in middle school I didn’t care about anything I just wanted what I wanted and didn’t care who I hurt to get it. I was also very risque and wasn’t to wise with boys. Now, I have learned lessons and grown up a bit. I’d like to think it was because I realized boys weren’t all that mattered, money wasn’t the only thing in life, and my feelings are important but so are others.
I believe I changed the most from the obstacles I have been through, my mother moving out, being molested by a father figure and best friend, and just dumb mistakes I have made. they have all pushed me forward to want to help others and always push myself forward.
ifiendtofeed-deactivated2011042 asked: I miss you but it seems like we don't ever see each other anymore.
i miss you too, i know our plans always fallout or schedules conflict.
fifteen facts about myself:
If today was my last day I would be pretty content with it. I didn’t do anything real extravagent. School was okay, it wasn’t horrible; the hospital was great, I did a ton; After school I hung out with Daniel all night watching season one of Friends and that was wonderful. So if i died now in my heated blanket watching the lifetime movie network while talking to my wonderful boyfriend I would die happy.
1) Post 15 facts about yourself.
2) Write about the best friends you’ve had over the years.
3) If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?
4) Write about a period of time in your life where things seemed to be constantly going good.
5) Write about a period of time in your life where things were not so good.
6) When was the last time you were truly honest with someone? What was it about?
7) Post your favorite quote.
8) How do you feel today?
9) What’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?
10) What’s the meanest thing anyone has ever said to you?
11) Write about the best day of your life.
12) Write about the worst day of your life.
13) What are your plans for the future? Far and near.
14) Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.
15) Write about something you worry about a lot.
16) Write about your relationship status.
17) Bullet your day.
18) Post one confession/ secret.
19) Write about your last birthday and how you plan to spend your upcoming birthday.
20) What did you eat today?
21) How has your life changed over the past year?
22) Find a horoscope site and post yours.
23) Post your Tumblr crushes.
24) How was your week been?
25) Write about your first kiss.
26) Write about your best/ favorite kiss.
27) Where is somewhere you would want to visit?
28) If you had three wishes, what would they be?
29) Write about any particular habits/mannerisms that you have.
30) Where do you think you’ll be in 5 years?
1. What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, how satisfied would you be with your final hours?
2. Who are you? In comparison to who you used to be. What made you change?
3. Where have you been spending your time lately? Three/Five/Ten years ago would you have expected to be there?
4. What do you think it means to be in love?
5. Pick a song that projects the same mood as your day or week and explain.
6. Talk about a recent experience that has effected you greatly and how.
7. Think of the last person you hugged. What would you do if they vanished completely?
8. Write about the first moment that comes to your head when you read the words “childhood memory”
9. Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
10. Did you have a good day or a bad day? Where do you think that defining line was?
11. Do you feel protective over someone?
12. If you could trade places with anyone for one week, who would it be and why?
13. Where do you see your best friend in 10 years?
14. When you are stressed, what can you use as an outlet? Why do you think it helps you?
15. What do you believe in? And not just God or atheism.
16. What are you passionate about?
17. Who was the last person you kissed? (If you are still with them now, pick the person before them.) What would they say if they saw you now?
18. Talk about your extended family. Why do you think they are the way they are?
19. If you could be anywhere in the world, but you had to be there for a certain cause, where would you be and why?
20. Again, pick a song that projects the mood of your week or day.
21. Look back. Why did you choose this challenge? Do you think it says anything about you?
22. How do you think people see you? Be a little negative and a little positive.
23. Explain your life plan for the next month, then the next year, then three years, then five years.
24. Are you more social or independent? Why do you think that is?
25. What do you think it means to be a good parent?
26. Talk about a moment where you were truly happy. What was happening? Who were you with?
27. Is there a friend you are worried about? Why do they have you concerned? Do you think they’ll be okay?
28. Would you rather someone tell you the truth up front but gently, or be lied to to spare your feelings?
29. If you could be doing the same things you do now, only in your own way, how would a normal day in your life go?
30. Look back on this last month and talk about it.
youmayblameaphrodite asked: you know this i connected with your facebook. that's like.. breaking rule number one of tumblr.
what?
FYI
ifellinlovewithamantoooldformeatthirteen
iputmywholelifeintoafriendshipthatshatteredafterfiveyears
igavemyselftoafewboyswhodidn’tdeserveit
ikeepgoingbacktoaboywhojustcausesmepain
iletmyselfgettouchedbyhim
itrusteveryonesoeasilyjustforthemtouseitagainstme
ibetrayedmymorals
ilostmyself
i can’t take my mind off you
yet that is exactly what we both need me to do
all i do everytime you come back
is sit and reminisce about things our relationship lacked
i can’t help but feel stronger than i need to
because you do this even when its wrong to
my heart is torn because of secrets we’ve worn
i just want to belong like back when you’d sing me a song
but sadly those day have come and gone
and now im alone unless you call around dawn
i know we’re just one big mistake
but i can’t feel as if you are mine to retake
i know in my heart that i need to move on
but the point is this and that im not that strong
friendship and love do not coexist with you
i know this because we have tried it a few
please just try to remove me from your life
because i cannot deal with all this strife
breakingdownwithoutasound
ihavenofearthatimdrowninghere
onceimgoneyouwillsingasong
aboutloveandpainaboutmyfaithandgames
ihavenothingtoprovideforifeelnothinginside
idonotnowherethispainisfromprobablysomethingihavedone
icannotwaittoseeandgetridofthismisery
foriwanttobebackwithoutanylack
iwanttobemeagainiwanttofeelfreeagain
